Saturday, December 24, 2005

Are you really blogging on Christmas Eve?!?


Yeah, why not? One has to kill time before opening the presents. ;)

All done with noche buena which was relleno, shrimps, potato salad, green salad, two kinds of gravy, apples, grapes, bread, three kinds of cheese, pecan pie, apple pie and champagne. i tried everything. so guess who's on heifer mode.

The barrage of SMS xmas greetings have started coming in and I want to share with you guys my favorite one so far, though it seems more like a new year's one than a xmas one:

"Thank you for another fantastic year with you guys. May we all achieve greater heights, find happines in our everyday life, and continue to strive for perfection, joy and peace in Christ. Another outdoor adventure next year! Merry Christmas. "

This one's courtesy of Elmer. Yeah, I know. Did he actually come up with this one himself?!? He he. Jk.

Friday, December 23, 2005

What are Pinoys looking forward to eat this Xmas?


I got this graphic from the Social Weather Stations website. They are results of a survey questioning what Pinoys are most looking forward to eat this Xmas. And the winner is, surprise surprise, ham! Taken as a whole, it's ham that we pinoys want to eat. Taken separately, Visayans #1 food anticipation is desserts. But Ham is a close 2nd among Visayans. Dessert foodie concentration just might be quite high in Cebu. People in Mindanao don't seem to care much for Ham. They want Lechon Baboy

Ham is the #1 food anticipation across all classes, except class E. They're mostly anticipating "Other Chicken Dishes".

Funnily enough, the rating of ham's traditional accompaniment, keso de bola is quite low.

week reversals

the christmas season has turned my gimmick habits on its head. i spent Friday night to Sunday afternoon veging at home, and since then i've been heading off to all sorts of weekday night social activities. the pain of weekenders doing their xmas shopping is enough to turn me off from any travel. today should be hellish, since it is the last working day before xmas. those banks should be packed.

finally was able to meet up with Premila last night. spent much time looking through her 700 picture collection of Nepali/Tibetan men working in and around Camden. Prem's got this funny all male barkada in London as her network. I couldn't keep track anymore of who was from what tribe or what, or who was part Belgian or part whatever. Jason was a welcome addition later on, and we played a little classic MSK* while finishing up our cans of beer. (Apparently, I'm the beer light-weight)

tonight is the final stretch. most of the gifts have been bought. there's just a xmas concert to attend to, two dinners, a wild party (?), before the calm of the 24th and hieing off to Ilocos

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

we can help out

there's been a lot of rain down south in Oriental Mindoro, Palawan. so we're talking of floods and displaced people here. xmas is around the corner. let's help make people greet the 25th with more ease and less worry.

got this text tonight:

Ateneo Task Force Noah: Calling on volunteers for Mindoro Floods Relief Operations. Star at 5 pm dec 20 tuesday at the Eliazo Hall Basement. Contact Bobby Guevara / Michelle Juan at 09209225674 for more info. Thank you.

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Compilation Lists

A lot of people can be quite anal about organizing their record collection -- ordering it by genre, chronologically in terms of date of purchase, alphabetically by artist, or whatever Rob Gordon style obssession they feel like for the time being.

We have an interesting way of organizing CDs here at home. We have CDs that are removed from their cases and scattered in the various glove compartments of our three cars. There are special CDs that we've placed nicely in synthetic Case Logic containers. And there are CDs that are hopelessly gathering dust in one of those ugly metal towers that seemed like excellent birthday gifts not too long ago. If you ask any of us where a CD is any given time, we probably won't be able to tell you with any surety, which is why come Christmas time we are hard pressed to gather all the right discs at one place. We end up grasping for whatever crumby Xmas CDs happen to be in the vicinity -- this means Alvin and the Chipmunks and Perry Como. Ugh.

To remedy this situation (!), I'm starting to create a master CD or mp3 playlist, if you will, of the holiday tunes I plan to cycle (subject to) my family during upcoming long road trips / living room lounging / crammed bits of wrapping presents. They're not all strictly Xmas songs

So far I've got:

Winter Wonderland - Diana Krall
Grown-up Christmas List - Michael Buble
Little Drummer Boy - Bing Crosby ( I wanted something that would be the classic core)
I've Got Love to Keep me Warm - Dean Martin
Winter Wonderland (again!) - Ray Charles

You can sneer if you like. He he. Your constructive suggestions though would be more helpful.

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Just finished rereading the Nick Hornby's book of many music sneers and humor, High Fidelity. I first read this just two or three years ago, when I was fresh out of college. I still don't get most of the musical references (though I DO know now who the lead singer of the Wailers is!). What I find most amusing is how his observations about his relationships are things that I can now identify with. Been there, been that in pinoyspeak. I used to find Laura such an ass. . .

When one is a little younger, one can't understand why older people can be so retarded with their romantic relationships. At a later age, one figures that one really is just a little crazy, like everyone else?

Jack Black and Catherie Zeta are perfectly cast as Barry and Charlie, but John Cusack is a bit too handsome, as has been observed, to really be a "loser" like Rob.

Friday, December 16, 2005

technology enabling information gluttony

I discovered from bloglines.com that there are two individuals who subscribe to my blog's RSS feed. well one of those individuals is me. who could the other one be? wow. i have a fan.

actually i haven't figured out all the ins and outs of bloglines.com but it's a great way to keep track of blogs and when they're updated. i used to have firefox launch ten tabs of blogs that i wanted to read. now i just look at my bloglines feed list, where i now keep track of 45 blogs more or less. could you otherwise imagine opening 45 tabs?? he he. technology enabling information gluttony.

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I thought I was gonna end up with a loser night last night but that changed quickly. Kel and I had to share a car so the plan was for him to drive to Ortigas Center (where he had a meeting and two gigs) and for me to take a cab to Makati Sports Club for swimming training. BIG MISTAKE. Seems like everyone is doing their Xmas shopping now. Pucha. I ended up in the dumbest taxi queue on the planet: Basic Taxi in Shangrila Mall. Was able to practice matrona-style evilness and ring their main number. Hello. Where's the fucking dispatcher?

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The night was saved coz I trooped over to catch the Dicta License gig at 12 in El Pueblo. Recently saw Dicta during their album launch of Paghilom and they were pretty good again this time around. I'm tired though of hearing Ang Ating Araw (over played for me), and enjoying Daloy ng Kamalayan and Enemy more in their set. They played four songs, w/c is about the right number considering my limited rock stamina for a band.

Also heard Itchy Worms (galing ng Hanggang dito na lang ang masa lyric song, whats it called); Mojofly (so-so), and Sponge Cola. Sponge is one of those bands whose name I've heard for a while but I can't associate a melody or song to. I wonder why I've heard a negative comment about them in the recent past. They were good. Their drummer (Charlie? edit: Chris pala) he bangs dem drums hataw. Overall sound dynamic balance ok naman. Vocalist ok na ok rin. And guitars too. Bassist? Hmm. I don't know how to evaluate them really. It was a fan girl night. Screechers and bobbers, esp. for Dicta and Sponge.

Butch and Patching came over and brightened my night. So I didn't get to swim; heard some good music. Loser night transformed.

Monday, December 12, 2005

Maximo Foucault

after planning to watch from Ang Pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros, I finally got to watch it in Gateway with Tina. I thought I was doomed to have to catch it via pirated DVD, but I was pleased that Teens came through the last minute with a YM message earlier this morning.

Everyone has made comments about how technically it was limited, and how the story was good. I won't go into that anymore. What I'm going to say though was that I found it pretty obvious that Maxie is played by a straight boy. He wasn't gay enough.

I'll give the film credit in that it didn't overplay the gayness of Maxie (part of the reason that they picked a straight boy to portray the character), but Maxie was still missing a certain playful defiance and self consciousness that characterizes young gay boys. It's pretty essential that the Maxie character will make you relate to his coming-of-age pains. We all have yearned for that someone we couldn't have once upon a time. I wasn't brought into that portal; didn't work for me. It didn't seem real I guess. You know who had the gay sparks? The moreno kid friends of Maxie. Check out the scene: Representing Thailand(seems gay), Venezuela(seems gay), Philippines(seems like a straight boy playing a gay guy)!

Not being gripy here. It's just an honest observation on my reaction. No regrets watching this movie.

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Other pursuits. Started reading first chapter of Foucault's The history of sexuality. Finally, echoes of what Maita and to a certain extent Bobby have been talking about. Photo taken from amazon.com

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Bourgeois existence

part of my bourgeois existence is the privilege to head off to the beach at a moment's notice. Monday being a holiday, I received an SMS invitation Saturday night from Lorraine - "Let's go to Punta Fuego this Monday!" I had to reply, "Now that's a brilliant idea. What are the details?"

The troop this time around was Lorraine & Lala (pillars of the gimik gung), James, Brian S and me. We lazed around Punta from 1030 - 600 pm, and pigged out in Tagaytay afterwards.

Talk got around to what would be one's perfect day. Initially, mine involved getting to play in the morning, read in the afternoon, and party at night. Had to mention now that it would have to take place in a lovely beach resort. :)

Relatively idyllic day, and I didn't even spend much.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

i'll blog while i can

why? see my lj. username fab_ab for an explanation.
i composed this entry last night and now i post it here while in rizal study foyer (yes! i no longer have internet convenience!! not lately anyway)

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I saw Sarah Silverman on Conan tonight, that crazy bitch (Sarah, not Conan). Totally not likely that her movie(?) Jesus is Magic will show here. They couldn't show a clip of it, instead we got Rosario Dawson doing the A-ooohhh scene in Rent. Gave me an idea of how offensive the movie probably is. He he. Semi-Quote from Sarah's routine: "I don't care if he thinks I'm a bigot, I just want him to think I'm thin."

Speaking of half crazy women, am presently reading Francoise Sagan's Scars on the Soul. A little trippy, experimental novel type of the 70s. Author is talking to you as she writes her novel. So far quote enjoyable, and the book is thin! :) If any of you guys have her, Bonjour Tristesse please tell me. I'll lend you another recently deceased author in exchange, Saul Bellow.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

grunge meme

Nirvana
Grunge! You're all about the music and would even
turn your back on fame just to stay true to
your roots... You reached your high in the
early '90s, but you're still making some good
stuff! Keep rocking!


What genre of rock are you?
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getting dunked

mental note: every time there's a meeting in Jason's house bring a swimsuit. 'coz if u haven't got one, you'll still get a soaking as people throw you into the pool.

i spent the rest of sunday afternoon at Filinvest for the evaluation / pool - dunking seminar of the loyola mountaineers. We didn't get much work done as is ALWAYS the case when students decide to have an evaluation seminar. It's like rest anyway. It was like the last summer day for most people. We tossed frisbees in the backyard and played a game of dodgeball (20 people). You know how satisfying it is to pitch a ball to someone and chuck him out? He he. We also played some weird 2-3 games of basketball in between eating inihaw. thought Sunday turned out well.

Monday, November 14, 2005

Sabay sabay lumiliyab

on a whim, i decided to attend Dicta License's album lunch (Paghilom) at 6 Underground. Turned out pretty well, good crowd, and the band line-up was pretty interesting

Happy Meals -- good sounds! actually my fave afer Dicta for the night
Cog -- teeth grating after the first 3 songs but legit or those who are into that heavy sound
Up Dharma Down -- good vocals
Twisted Halo -- ok, but was already impatient to hear Dicta at this point

'thought their sound was pretty good, though Kel thought that the vocals volume wasn't loud enough. I didn't really notice. They played practically their entire new album. May dating, first go. This is a good product, imo.

Managed to drag John, Bob and Jess in for a few songs (fish out of water moment daw). I do wonder what Jeline will have to say about that night's performances. North Park chow before heading home.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

truly shitty

I hate it when the day starts shitty. Dad 'coralled' the kids around to give them a talking to, something he's really good at, and it's something that increasingly I'm losing patience with. The situation is kinda pathetic actually, and also unfair. We are a unit, but I hate the way that (he admits this himself) that we get 'roped-in' to the negative energy fest that he seems to perversely dispense to all of us. I even said, "I don't want to argue. . ."

I'm going to fix my room now. Maybe some physical work will get the general shitty-ness out of my system. It's a stupid and pathetic state of things. Un-necessary in my point of view; I hate having to be some sort of emotional sponge, cleaning up everybody else's neuroses. That's selfish of you all, you jerks.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Back from the North - Pulag adventure

i've been gone for almost two weeks. no sooner had i returned from an induction climb to Mt. Pulag, I headed back to the Baguio area to give a debate seminar. I had no real reason to go, except that I owed a good friend a Baguio adventure. We were calling it a promise that was three years old.

Many things to say about the LM (Loyola Mountaineers) induction climb. I was team leader to the applicants, to a certain extent. For the most part it was Jason who led the entire team for the 4+ days in the mountain, but I had to handle the group for an entire saturday, the day applicants were 'left behind' by the members to find our own way to the camp by the summit. This meant having to figure out the pace, rest stops, and other such issues for 19 people. It wasn't easy. One can imagine that it is difficult enough to calibrate pace and rest for a group of 5 people (normal group size for AMCI), but I had to figure this out for 19. Days later in the post-climb I got a few comments about how things were much too fast, etc. Well, I explained, I could only try to reach the happy medium. Figuring out optimal rest stops for 19 is like coordinating monetary policy for the EU. Someone's gonna bitch.

Til now, LM training climbs had sorta been easy. This isn't a criticism, it's just an observation, from my point of view (w/c I don't trumpet much anyway). I chalk it up to the (proper) conservatism that the org has maintained in terms of deciding what applicants can handle. Members can easily do harder climbs when it's just them.

This induction wasn't easy-LM anymore. I'd even call it an AMCI level TC. It was the first time that I did 4 night-treks in a row. I hadn't even done 1 night trek up to this point. Previous (AMCI) climbs, I'd always been in a sub-group that was a little obssessed with getting to the camp quick, before darkness set in. (I call it Sir Manny Torralba style). Now, for various reasons, like a jeep breaking down, or setting off late in the morning, we had to do night treks. The saturday evening night-trek was through the open grasslands of Pulag. It was nearly 3 hours of being hit with wind and cold, while trekking on a trail one could barely see because of failing headlamps and flashlights. We were so happy when we saw the lights of the rescue party -- 30 mins away from the camp. The members thought we were 'dead'. I was very proud of the team. We had decided to do this 3 hour crap fest rather than settle down in another camp. We're all crazy bastards as one of the applicants said. Later we found out that arriving that late in camp, and trekking that long was some sort of LM record.

We had induction rites the following morning. (Hush-hush about the details, of course). I can say though that Pulag gave us a small window to see the summit in its glorious version. Running up to the peak, i saw the sun come out and wash the side of the mountain in golden light. The famous 'sea of clouds' was on display for a few brief minutes. This was the 'best' peak so far that I had been to.

The rest of the climb was uneventful after that tough Saturday. We scuttled plans to climb down via the steep Akiki route and decided to do (easier) Ambangeg. Later, after the 3 hour (vomitous) ride back to Baguio was done, we were conducting the Post-climb. Naturally, got a lot of comments, queries, being TL for the group. It was humbling, 'coz everything I did was put under scrutiny, and commented on. Realized that the work of TLs was a lot tougher than I had imagined. All the more respect I have for the members of this org. You can't just take care of yourself, with this role. You got to take care of everybody. You have authority and respect, but also the weight of a lot on your shoulders. No regrets doing this job though, and I thought the applicants were pretty happy. The comments during the post-climb were straightforward, but also constructive and fair.

Thanks to the prodding of Jaja, we didnt take the first bus home after the climb. There was time for hanging out and kalokohan around Baguio. Everyone had the mountain high. A highlight was when were all eating at Oh My Gulay. We were tasting each other vegetarian fare like mountaineers -- standing over plates, and relentlessly attacking with out forks. It was a nice atmosphere. We all did some shopping before heading to the bus home.

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Shout outs (yuck, can we think of a better term?) to Batch 16 who survived the Pulag ordeal / induction climb / adventure. We got through the never-ending (yet surreal) Mossy Forest. Not to mention our bizarre eating habits (feast and famine, crap and tasty stuff). Pretty thankful for my team (group 1) who put up with a lot of Analness in my part -- I hated the way they entered the tent with their wet jackets. UGH. They're tough though. I'm referring to (Tiger) Mancy, Mons, Carlo Carlos, and Mickey Lu.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

why write. . .

why write angry things? the world is angry enough.
why write 'happy' things? the world is deluded and escapist enough
why write mundane things? the world is shallow and stupid enough
why attempt to write deep things? the world is pretentious enough

why write lies? you have a difficult enough time grasping the truth.
why write the truth? that's a good question why write the truth.

why write about ugly things? do people really need to see more ugliness?
why write about beautiful things? that's a good question why write about beauty.

Monday, October 03, 2005

Captain Incompetence strikes again

Goodness. I had this mistaken impression that a colleague of mine had been getting the hang of doing his job as a teaching assistant with me. I guess I was mistaken.

I put in a bit of effort of making two sets (one green, one blue) for last weekend's final exam. As we all know, this discourages students from cheating. We used to be lazy by making one set and putting them in two different colors so as to give the impression that it was two different sets. Of course, you can only fool the students once with this technique.

ANYWAY, during the day of the exam, Mr. Colleague picks up the collated test papers in the assistants room, and proceeds to distribute the exams for each classroom in this manner: all green exams in one room, all blue exams in another. Hmm. I wonder why we even bothered put them in two colors? For aesthetic purposes?

The ironic thing is now that I've bothered to make two DIFFERENT sets, we get the worst of both worlds by somebody giving each section the one set with the same color.

He later rationalizes his actions to me that he thought that either color was the same set.

"Umm, all the more you'll want to mix them together, right?" God, I actually went straight at him for a change and semi-chewed him out (how do you chew out a colleague right? if he was my subordinate, oh he'd be dead.)

Thank God a fellow pissed off colleague of mine was a simple mobile phone call away.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

"Whatever will make we want to get up in the morning"

The semester is coming to a close, and with it thoughts of what next. This is my final semester of grad studies and also probably my final semester of teaching at UP and Ateneo. Perhaps in the future, I will return, but that's not what I'm thinking about now. I feel that it is so right to do something else. After 2.5 years doing academic things, it's time for a change. I just have to figure out what that will be.

A quick criterion I threw at Bob last night, about what I wanted to do, was something that would make me want to get up in the morning excited to do what I'm supposed to do. That's tough, it's probably easier to find a job that will just give you a lot of money -- he said, or something like that. I'm gonna have to figure that out.

We (Me, Bob and Len) had such a fun and funny night last night. Let's just say that Bob kept on making fun of me because I kept on making scenarios of how I would act in front of famous people. To think that I had been remarking that nothing interesting seems to happen anymore. The newest things are the most exciting and I guess that's what keeps one young. Sometimes I have such an Oprah well-adjusted blog.

I feel that i'm on a fence between young and old. I'm turning 25 later this week. You bastards better get me some presents.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

dear concerned person

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a semi-public service announcement by the owner of this blog

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

so i blew another soy mocha in starbucks this morning, dang that stuff is good. it's probably fattening. you know what they say. anyway, i just want to get into a little ramble here, and i don't know why im apologizing to the cyberspace air, but anyway. . .

so i was deciding what to teach my econ kids today. wow. i've practically finished the entire syllabus! i guess i will teach them that chapter on basic tools of finance after all! i decided to give them a little lecture on the costs of inflation and then move on to basic finance. never got to basic finance. costs of inflation ended up taking the whole time. and it wasn't because of their questions, it was because they couldn't keep up. oh well, i guess i bore myself to death when i teach slowly so i sped up a little. poor kids. they're not gonna find my lecture in the book. i have to figure out how to reward people who actually listen. i think i'm gonna put an essay portion in my final exam. i'm gonna give them a little curve ball, just to be fair to those who actually pay attention.

jojo l (leviste! not lastimosa) fresh from Syd was actually sitting in my class. we were gonna hang out in the afternoon. apologized for giving a class that i think bored a few them to death (despite my contrary opinion that actually things were getting really meaty. oh well. we'll see what they put in my evaluation). we had a semi-baboy lunch at Libis, this italian place and browsed around a different bookstore. we went to metro walk (yuck) to buy his boss some DVDs and ended up in the best part of the afternoon. i just hung out in his condo watching the new concert dvds, eating cookies and reading whatever books looked interesting in his room. jojo was organizing his social life during his one week and a few stay here. which reminds me that harvey is in town nga pala.

got home and started doing some work and because im afraid that watching TV is gonna derail me from further progress, i started typing somethings here. where has mahar been? he's been coming home late a lot.

Monday, September 19, 2005

You are a

Social Liberal
(63% permissive)

and an...

Economic Conservative
(60% permissive)

You are best described as a:

Centrist




Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid

Friday, September 16, 2005

Phone got waterlogged

I had a real good run last night with some LM mountaineers. Finished strong which is a nice feeling. Running in the rain rules. Downside though is that my phone is now messed up. It can receive ur texts and calls, but the buttons are useless. Must be some moisture somewhere and the 0 button gets stuck. If u guys need to get in touch w/ me just e-mail ( I check it A LOT ) or send me a (offline) message on YM (fabian_b_mangahas).

tonight i'm gonna see a high school friend I hadn't seen in ages. I want to give him the guilt trip. Ha ha. It's his fault really. Then I'm gonna go back to work. This weekend promises to be just as BUSY as last. Oh well, the semester is winding down anyway. I've picked up another book that's been lying around. I gave Theroux's Hotel Honolulu another chance. It's better this time around. When the sem is over, I'm gonna buy myself some some more paper and ink.

'spoke to Harvey last night, after ages. Still has the same droll sense of humor. Debate ppl, did you know he's flying in for a few weeks? maybe we should organize something. he doesn't have much time though. his weekends are already booked

Monday, September 12, 2005

end of a project

today was the culmination of the globe gizmo debate 'tournament' and i thought it turned out pretty well. the kids did the best they ever did, and the principal, the parents and the kids themselves seemed happy about it. i'm glad that all the work and the training seemed to have paid off. they seem that much more confident about themselves. i also got paid. bwahahaha. which is ALWAYS nice.

len, kellda were the ADS people who showed up to judge, glad for that. thanks again guys. made all the difference. after the event, drove len to makati and dropped her in the KAF office but not before having a little coffee time with her. mid-day in Salcedo Village is actually not such a bad thing. i'd even call it pleasant.

back in QC traffic was hell. it took me forever to get to UP, just to read in the bulletin board that offices were closed at 1pm onwards because of the transport strike. sheesh. killed time (na lang) in Starbucks before picking Gica up at six. To kill time I read Gaiman-Pratchett work Good Omens. I fell asleep listening to my mini in Starbucks. I was on one of the arm-chairs.

Pops brought home today his special economist subscription card. yehey. i get premium content online again. ;) i got home and acted lazy. just wanted to document the day though, where I was in black trousers, black shose and a dress shirt. it's actually nice to be in office attire sometimes.

thanks ebtg for inquring about the proceedings. there were some funny moments which i'll tell you about next time we meet.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

today

the grade school kids had their 2 exhibition debates this morning, and i thought that it turned out pretty well. it's nice to see other kids who were once quite shy and quite monotonous sounding to come out of their shell. the teachers and parents thought that they did pretty well today. well, wait for monday i boldly said. they're gonna kick ass.

I attended the LM post-climb afterwards, which I've noticed is a drawn out fairly inefficient affair. Oh well. I don't like complaining coz then I'll be Mr. Know-it-all. Roy has a big mouth though. Now, I have to write this proposal for an environmental project (that I sorta drafted a simple version of) or everybody gets a sanction. Today at least, Jason announced that we were all at the "Backlog" point, meaning that in case we were removed from LM now, we'd be able to start at this point of the application process (post 2 climbs and post 5 and 10 K trials).

Afterwards, had a good conversation in Starbucks with Dondi while waiting for my high school classmates. We were gonna meet up to head to John Paul's Dad's wake. That was a little sad, a little odd, a little ok what now. John Paul, well, condolences to him and his family. His dad was 55 and he was shot in the back last Sunday.

Back in Ateneo, we killed a little time at the Gonzaga parking lot. Some reminiscing, and a quick remark I gave to Cesar: The number of adventures kinda decrease when you get older, right? Yeah, people don't take risks as much, and you can't blame anyone.

Gonna check out this group that beat out Coldplay in the Brit Mercury Awards: Antony and the Johnsons

Monday, September 05, 2005

kids don't miss a beat

i was training some grade school kids in debate, and was increasingly spacing out and losing focus, mostly cause the parents of the kids were there to observe that day. what didn't help was that i was using a microphone hooked up to a karaoke. so they could catch most every word. i told the kids, "let me not use the mic, 'coz I find myself getting pretty conscious." kid pipes up, "is it because the grownups are able to listen to you?" or something to that effect.

sometimes i get a little frustrated with my UP students. They're an OK lot, but sometimes it takes so much to extract anything from them. It makes me wonder if they have the sense that asking for help is a bad thing. Younger kids, if they don't get something, will get it off their chests and say so. College kids have already built their outer shell. If they don't get something, they just clam up. In a sense, that makes it more difficult for them to handle. One thing that you can't rely the younger kids to do though is to take initiative. It's just an observation on my part, not so much a generalization.

i think i don't remember the pace at which students learn. they cram everything at the last minute (still). so, why expect discussion classes to be optimal? they're more supplemental. heard a few stories today though, that some discussion leaders dismiss them after 10 minutes of lecture. but hey, these people keep on coming back right? at the very least to submit problem sets. there have to be getting some value from it.

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

some ideas certain students aren't ready to process just yet. in this case, i'm not talkin about readiness that comes from life experience. i'm talking about readiness that comes from a person who would do a little reading outside the realm of what one encounters everyday. so, for some of these people, knowing certain things won't be a matter of time, but whether they want to be individuals who actually care about ideas and their roles in being vessels of change. i'm not worrying too much about it though. . .

earlier DSL was screwing up. damn. i drank 85 bucks worth of soy milk in starbucks earlier. where do i get all this money

Sunday, August 28, 2005

I decided to ditch Nams today, foregoing a day trip to her farm and restaurant in Pampanga, in exchange with spending some time with Pops. Gica and Mahar are off in the first debate invitational of the school year, and Kel had some music business with Marc. So that left only me at home, and I thought that I had been spending more than one recent weekend away from home. I needed the brownie points, too. I'll be away and gone next weekend to Mt. Cristobal.

It takes a bit of time to get Pops to talk animatedly. He waxed on and on about jesuits and religion while we were eating at Heaven and Eggs in Tomas Morato. He knows his priests. I forget that he was actually sitting next to Horatio de la Costa many years ago on a trip home from Rome. My pops doesn't always talk much, so it was refreshing change to see him pretty much start getting all excited. He didn't lose any steam when I had to check a few SMSes that came in during the conversation. Memories like these are important. We talked a bit about the house today, and also the arrangements for P. Florentino. I see a potential conflict here, 'coz parents seem to be of two different minds as to what to do with our old house. Income generation is an important element in any future plans as far as Pops is concerned.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

fuss over Sigur Russ

I've been fixing up the tracks in my IPOD, using snatches of lyrics and discography lists to fill in the missing elements. Can someone tell me what's the big deal with Sigur Ros and why some of my friends rave over this Icelandic group? It's majorly boring. Luvstory is now playing on Itunes. It's 7 minutes of grr hss grr. I'm falling asleep. Maybe it's suppose to approximate an ice floe. Njosnavelin from the Vanilla Sky soundtrack seems a little better. Flugufrelsarinn. What is this. . .

I thought Serj Tankian was some guy on Broadway. Ha ha ha.
Another page of the book of one's life.

Went to Maita's despedida dinner last night. It was the usual cast of Maita characters that I mostly getting along with -- well, I've accepted that sometimes you can't get along with everybody, and to force the issue isn't worth it. Also realized, that some people morph into better people when their evil-influence friends aren't around. Isn't this the case for all of us? Even at our age (gasp!) we still get swayed by the EI people.

Ate so many of those cocktail hotdogs with marshmallows. Food hi-light though was the chocolate fondue that I slathered over bananas, grapes, marshmallows and taisan cake.

I'm glad Maita appreciated the Canada book I gave her. I do hope she uses it! She'll be leaving soon, and I'm guessing (hoping!) that the one year she's gone will go by real fast. Told myself that I wasn't gonna drink much, and I succeeded, taking in only a glass or two of red wine. Still got home at around 4 am though hailing a cab somewhere in the middle of Ortigas.

Am loading up my Ipod with classical music I like. Mobile music for your moods. You can start mapping out your emotional makeup depending on the kind of music needs you have, I think. I have my classical moments, still.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

:)

watching South Park now on Jack TV. had forgotten how funny this shit is.

August sucks. People start leaving for school that starts in September. I have a bunch of friends who are leaving. It doesn't change each year. Ever notice that it's the cool and fun people who leave? I want to be the one to leave -- not coz I hate this place, but then I don't get left behind. Well, I did that 2002. My turn. What a bitch.

Actually the ideal would be all of us in one big ass cosmopolitan alive city. It can be Manila, but we'd have to be all here. . .
i'm flying off to davao this weekend to give a debate seminar. i wonder what hotel the organizers are gonna book me in. i last went to davao around 4 years ago, and it left me with a very positive impression. the people were cool there, and it was more relaxed than manila, and there seemed to be a whole bunch of spots to hang-out in.

davao davao davao. la la la la. im gonna see what the LP and other guides say about the place.

its 530 pm. i want to go home. too tamad to work out today. im supposed to run 10k tomorrow. screw making a best time. will just get the dang thing over with. too busy to train properly. sheesh

Sunday, August 07, 2005

my body probably thinks im schizo. saturday i had a bumming morning, ran 6-7k in the evening, then scooted over to bobby's to drink up and smoke up. slept in this morning before lunch and then shopping at galleria. i bought sports equipment. lovely.

i've been leaching off lorraine's backpack for more than a year, and now i got my own. a 75 liter conqueror brand for just over 2k. im pretty happy that the people at the store told me that it was around 3.5k before, and that i had gotten a good price on it. it's larger than the 65L i used to borrow from Lorraine which is what i want anyway, and im used to this brand. i just have a small worry about the straps and how it will feel after a long trek, but im comfortable with it, and it seemed quite stable and good when i had loaded it up w/ a 4 man tent, sleeping bag, cookset and stove. i was marching all around the store w/ the gear strapped on my back. i guess i can take it out for some ramps this coming wednesday.

it's gonna be a busy week. i have a paper to write, a long test to give, and a climb to prepare for. i dont think i have time for crap this week. that reminds me, i got to get JV's trekking pole fixed -- mental note.

i love buying good and good value gear. :) i finally bought a few dri-fit shirts today, so that i have something different to wear for the climbs and the runs. i have the same 2 (though good!) pieces. i rewarded myself w/ 3 new ones. i think i don't deserve them though, i haven't been very 'good' when it comes to fitness and discipline.

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bob's leaving his house, and last night it looked like a club. it was empty and there were lights. lots of mike's cute friends were there. ha ha. so it was sorta like a club. there was nice booze and smokes. normally i don't touch much, but i was in an odd mood so i say life is short. now, i feel though as if my body has to repair the damage. sometimes i wonder when it'll all catch up. i won't stress over it too much though -- what's done is done.

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i'm meeting with pat this tuesday, to consider buying her mask, fins and diving bag. gee, im gonna run out of money soon. i spent a lot of money on food, too. oh well, guess im gonna be a bit of skinflint the next few days.

Thursday, August 04, 2005

busy day

I'm going to Mt. Mariveles the weekend after next, and I've decided that the trip there can only be a reward from more than a week of productive hard work! So kept myself busy today, working on things that I normally would postpone til later. I figured that, really, my productivity is related to how much time I spend in front of the computer. How gross is that, I realize. I wish that I could be productive if I had a stack of books and an Ipod in Starbucks. No, to complete the whole picture, I'd have to be lugging along a laptop.

I sat in Sir Weyms (from my mathematical past!) Math class this afternoon. Andre was coming over to visit, so I decided to sit in as well. I actually liked sitting in his class. Felt I learnt something again (even if we were just talking about functions). Now I find myself being more able to interpret the teacher's sighs, side comments, etc. Essentially students are lazy, and as a teacher, you have to snap them out of it -- even if you are a real lazy one yourself. He he. They have to really see the value in what you're teaching, that's one thing. Not always easy to communicate that.

Monday, July 25, 2005

funny realization

older bro (25) kel and I have always been painted as polar opposites.

rocker jock vs. more nerdy prep
music vs. bookworm

list can go pretty much on. . .

today though, he started making fun of the test scores of some of my students, and how he would torture them as he announced their scores.

we actually have similarities in our sense of humor. funny only realizing that now.

SONA

SONA: a little disappointing, but i didnt expect much.

It is called a State of the Nation, so how was the state stated?

Economic and Social Analysis: Poor.

1. Talking in absolutes is useless. 4 million jobs created. Never mind that official gov't data on employment has not been as credible lately -- why don't you talk about the unemployment rate? Talk about NET jobs created, and the increase in the size of the labor market. Talk about the change in unemployment rate. Guess why it won't be talked about?

2. "Economy poised for take-off." Big big assertion. As an optimist, I actually would agree with this IF, and this is a humongous IF, the fiscal situation is resolved. Recap: Watered-down sin tax law passed, TRO for the EVAT. Prognosis: not good.

3. Mention of government programs . Credibility problems. It's easy to mention programs implemented. Please prove that such programs are not tokenistic and do not have negligible impact in the big picture.

Political Analysis - Non-existent

1. Political structures are flawed. This isn't a hard assertion to buy, but funny how she mentions that present structures still allow for reform and yet later on mentions that the best of the efforts of the politicians may not be enough for this structure.

2. Criticism: Failure to characterize/mention flaws of the present day political system. If reform is proposed, foremost is an explanation of the present day flaws. Closest thing mentioned is the problem of a centralizes bureaucracy. Is this really the biggest problem? Big problems include: 1. A fucked-up Comelec (no mention) 2. Sources of campaign funds that cause the booty-capitalism that is counter-productive. (no mention)

No mention of issues/struggles/concerns about the debate on the Parliamentary system. But then I guess it would be premature to bring this up now.

No mention of current crisis of leadership on her part. I guess I don't expect her to be able to say anything productive on this point, but you know, the state of the nation is very much affected by her issues. Early on, there is an implicit request that we insulate reform activities from this problem. Is that possible? One wishes so.

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My bro has the screwy habit of coming into the room to play video games or watch dumb-TV (well 1/2 the time), when I start using the computer. It's irritating coz I realize that I truly get distracted and get diminished enjoyment when there is alternate media beside me. I don't mention it too much though, coz a. well, it's not my room, and b. he'll think that it's more of an issue that I want some privacy when I use the internet for whatever reasons. Well maybe it is, but that's only a small part, really. I wouldn't mind if he was behind me on the bed reading a book.

nuggets

Some of these I gathered from a nice conversation with Ria A. Last night. She was so 'on the mark' last night. Well, not too surprised actually, 'coz she's been in a contemplative mood. Enjoyed her recent blog entry about triathletes. Anyway, it seems that you're in funny trouble when you start collecting/listing senti songs for somebody and if you're intelligent, you know that it never is just sex

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I was happy with my off-beat half-crazy talk to HPAIR Sunday morning at Alpadis. Kulang kasi sa tulog! Plus the stimulation of 'first speaker' Edsel helped. Anyway, I want to blog a few of my messy notes, so that I have it for reference in the future. In case I have to give some real interesting talk again.

Main points:

We live in exciting times.
We actually can make a difference. We can rock.
You can compete. Your ideas have to count.
Are you interested in Harvard? or in Asian and International Relations?
Governments come and go. Ideas STICK.
Intellectual Capital. We are supposed to be already it, baby.
But, I am an optimist.


Anecdotes:
China. India.
"Pacific Century"
Ho Kwon Ping.
Read Malcolm Gladwell's Tipping Point.
HPAIR Singapore 2001
HPAIR HongKong 1999

Sunday, July 10, 2005

from a friend who thinks about political and economic issues

Hello, please share with others if you wish.

Some Convictions on the Current Political Issue
Karl Kendrick Chua
July 8, 2005


Thesis: The call for resignation must come with
accountability for our decisions and a plan for the
economy in case of a succession.


On resignation: Calling GMA to resign and giving it
the right reasons (moral and practical) are not
enough. Stopping here is only a short-term solution
and is bound to cause more problems in the medium- to
long-term. Those calling for her resignation must
accept and be accountable for the following:

1. The Vice-President must, without question, succeed
the President.

2. The choice of Noli de Castro as successor must have
gone through a very thorough cost-benefit analysis and
discernment. On the positive side, NDC is neither
connected nor is biased to the following: Marcos and
Martial Law, and EDSA 1, 2 and 3. He is also
non-political. His experience as newscaster,
reporter, and TV host, which has brought him to all
places in the country and to all kinds of people in
different social conditions may be an important asset
to the Presidency. While he is seen as less competent
for the position, some may argue that his good
advisers are enough to guide him. But woe to the
people who are naïve not to think that equally bad
advisers and blackmailers can influence him and ruin
him and the Presidency again. It is a deep tragedy to
think that the Presidency cannot be influenced badly.
It is a myth to think that good can win over evil.
This may be true at the end of times but not at the
present battle. Those calling for GMA's resignation
and thus NDC's succession can only do so after giving
the entire issue and its consequences much thought.
Otherwise, pushing for the short-term solution without
thinking of its gigantic consequences would only
plunge our country into deeper uncertainty and
turmoil.

If we agree to call for GMA's resignation, we must be
held accountable for the consequences, even the
worst-case scenario of an incompetent NDC as President
surrounded by useless advisers with greater vested
interest, an economic crisis similar to 1983-85, and
institutions plunging to total uselessness. If we
cannot accept accountability, we should preserve the
status quo.

On the economy: The economy must always be insulated
from the political mess. It must remain resilient and
inelastic to the political situation. Most
importantly, the fiscal and tax administrative reforms
must continue without delay to avert an economic
collapse already predicted by respectable economists.
In this light, those calling for the resignation of
GMA and thus the accession of Noli de Castro must
accept and support the reappointment of the economic
team to the Cabinet upon succession of NDC, most
especially Emilia Boncodin and Willy Parayno, without
delay. The reappointment of Parayno is paramount as
his departure will stall the most important reforms in
tax administration history.

On unity and leadership: Since so many people and
groups are declaring their stands, they are
nevertheless close to futileness without a clear
unified stand and a recognized leader. Without
Cardinal Sin and given a tired Cory Aquino, there is a
vacuum in moral and civil leadership. We need to
rally behind a leader. We must first identity the
most credible leader in civil and religious society.
Personally, I would rally behind the collective Jesuit
leadership and the collective decision of CBCP.
Second, we must swallow our own pride and be humble
before our chosen leader and his decision/stand. In
this case, we must discard our petty quarrels on the
minor details of the issue as well as everything
connected to the bigger issue which is not important,
urgent or critical. As a benchmark, let go of
everything that we are not willing to stake our life
to. The most important points that should unite us
are the following: Constitutional succession, fully
accepting accountability for the resignation of GMA,
the succession of NDC, the unpredictable scenario that
may arise in the new administration, and shielding the
economy from the political mess.

On the credibility of electoral institutions: Given
some consensus and evidence that the oligarchs have
ruled for generations and have drastically stunted
economic growth and holistic development of the
country, we must declare, among other things, that
beginning the next election, we must refuse to elect
any member of the political oligarchic clans to any
position in government no matter how competent and
sincere they are. It is only then that we will have a
government less vested with political interest and can
serve the people better. On a similar tune, it must
be obvious by now that we must also call for the
resignation or impeachment and conviction of the
obvious politicians in Comelec who have no reason to
be there in the first place.

On attitude towards the whole issue: It must be
realized and obvious by now that any form of stand,
debate, argument or complaint without a workable
alternative or solution must be considered useless and
a waste of resources. Problems without solutions add
to noise, confusion, and uncertainty.

On how to strengthen the new President's capacity to
rule: Here is an initial list of what civil and
religious society must do to allow the next President
to rule with maximum capacity.

1. Civil and religious society which have clamored for
GMA's resignation and consequently allowing NDC to
succeed must declare publicly and adhere strictly and
sincerely to this declaration: That NDC does not owe
civil and religious society anything, especially his
seat of power, and thus is free to run the country
without resorting to payments and honoring political
debts.

2. Civil and religious society may give advice to the
new President but should again declare publicly and
adhere strictly and sincerely that they will not push
for one of their members to be in the Cabinet or in
any other position in government. They must also
declare that NDC is free to appoint as he wishes
subject to the normal rules of appointment and tests
of competence and neutrality.

To summarize, there are two main points to remember
and stake our life to:

1. There is no other viable option but constitutional
succession and that we must fully accept and be
accountable for the resignation of GMA and the
succession of NDC, no matter what happens (even in the
worst-case scenario).

2. The economy must be insulated from the political
mess. Reappointing the economic team (unless a better
choice is determined) must be priority upon succession
and we must support it.

Friday, July 01, 2005

good news on the paper street

i spoke with my adviser yesterday, knowing that it would be make or break time. it almost turned out badly. i thought we were hurtling towards the dreaded conclusion of me facing no choice but to change topic for my paper.

This is a recreated conversation, ok.

"are you still working on the environment?"

me thinking: "what else would i be working on? i'm not going to change my topic! not this late in the game."

i showed him my new model. Quite radically changed my left-hand side variable. He bought it.

One problem: Missing variable on the right side. "If you don't put even a proxy in, it'll cause the omitted variable problem. (How could I miss this?!?)"

"Sir, that variable you're asking me to put in is the problem I had with in the first place. If I had it, then I wouldn't even bother changing my left-hand side."

"You don't need a perfect variable, just a proxy."

"My old LHS variable can be a proxy then?"

"You'll need yet another one though, so as to determine that this proxy is a good one."

curiouser and curiouser!

"Sir, that variable comes in three versions, so I can use those?"

"Ok then."

"Do I model these and come back with you with the output (i.e. regressions)"?

"No, write me already the analysis or I might not appreciate the regressions...Isulat mo na"

It's the go signal to write the paper. God, a horizon in sight.

E says that I can be done with this in as little as a week. And I believe him. HA.

Monday, June 27, 2005


Your Slanguage Profile

Aussie Slang: 75%
Prison Slang: 75%
Canadian Slang: 50%
British Slang: 25%
New England Slang: 25%
Southern Slang: 25%
Victorian Slang: 25%

Friday, June 24, 2005

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Monday, May 30, 2005

Your Sexy Brazilian Name Is

Rafael Carvalho

Friday, May 27, 2005

have been feeling under the weather the past week and i've been getting quite irritable. hot rainy weather and strong airconditioning don't mix. i just want it to rain and rain and rain. yung sobrang lakas, siguro tapos mag-brobrownout at sobrang hangin.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Magic of Film

All great forms of art make you want to be a better person afterwards. Something to this effect is what Oprah once said.

I find that if I want to quote a source that will have 'authority' over other family members like my mom, Oprah ranks pretty high on the authority list, along with Rushdie & Nelson Mandela.

Here's an interesting article today on Marilouz Diaz-Abaya. She says encouraging things about the Filipino film industry, and the opportunities that are there to be grasped. Story linked here

Sunday, May 15, 2005

teaching development economics

Jeffrey Sachs makes an interesting comment about how economics is taught to students. This is an excerpt from a recent interview found
here

Emphasis added in the article is mine.

The End of Poverty: An Interview with Jeffrey Sachs
Interviewed By Onnesha Roychoudhuri

MJ: Now you suggest in your book that we need to assess ailing economies just as doctors assess patients. You call it "clinical economics." Does the current academic curriculum for development economics provide a sufficient framework for educating people to ensure that the MDGs will be achieved by future economists?

JS: No it doesn't. I realized 10 or 15 years ago that the students in economics departments write dissertations about countries that they never stepped foot in because their advisor gives them a database from Nigeria or Kenya or some place else, and they do their thesis that way. That's like becoming a doctor without ever seeing a patient. We don't do case studies. We don't train students to understand the differences across countries. There are a tremendous number of loose generalizations made all the time

Similarly, people aren't trained in the practical experiences of being operational. Sometimes people say, "We teach academic things, we don't teach operational things." But, frankly, to do development right, you have to do something that's more like going through medical school and having a clinical hospital where you actually learn about different cases, and do case analyses. When something goes wrong, you study it. There are what are called "M&M rounds" in hospitals—morbidity and mortality rounds. When something doesn't work, when a patient dies or doesn't get better, the doctors get together to discuss the case. We don't do that in academic economics. For me, the field is not properly organized right now to really take on these challenges adequately and I'm hoping that the field will become more like a clinical science.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Fake Feedback

Here's an e-mail I wrote to Inq7.net

Dear Editor,

I just want to bring to your attention the misuse of the term target
in your article, "Finance sees budget gap below target with new VAT
law".

You quote Finance Secretary Purisma as saying:=20

"I'm confident that with this measure, we're going to beat the target
and come up with a lower deficit (this year)."

In the context of the article, the main point being communicated is
that the VAT law may cause the deficit to be below the ceiling amount
that government has set.

Strictly speaking one doesn't aim to "beat the target", because a
target represents the ideal value, more or less of which would be less
than ideal. A target is like the center of a dartboard. Whether or not
you hit above or below the bullseye, it still isn't as good as if the
center had been hit in the first place.

One can exceed expectations, surpass goals, but one doesn't beat targets.

Thus, your article title more appropriately should read as, "Finance
see budget gap beneath ceiling with new VAT law." In its present form,
one can interpret the headline as a negative development, one being
'below target', which is the opposite of what is expressed in the
article.

- Fabian Mangahas

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I e-mailed this to money@inq7.net which is the posted e-mail address for writing the editor. Guess what I got in return not 5 seconds after e-mailing? This:

Hi. This is the qmail-send program at inq7interactive.net.
I'm afraid I wasn't able to deliver your message to the following addresses.
This is a permanent error; I've given up. Sorry it didn't work out.

:
Sorry, no mailbox here by that name. (#5.1.1)

--- Below this line is a copy of the message.

This might be part of the reason why the quality of writing on their site is such.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

i took a test. is this true? hmm












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You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

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Monday, May 09, 2005

gym adventures

wait a minute, that title sounded like something off a porn story. but why should i change it right? today, after a 2 day hiatus i went back to lovely Fitness World down the road (5 min walk away). Everybody there greets me and smiles so I always get a good vibe when I'm there.

I did the usual 24 min cardio (rotating between the 8.5 and 10 pace, gym ppl you know what im talking about), and resistance training bit, and decided to try this (old) class, Body Combat.

Body Combat. I was laughing inside for the first 5 mins. I guess I should be thankful of the training I got last year for a few weeks under the tutelage of Jun Delmo, who revamped our mountaineering workouts and gave us some 'kick, punch jab kick' body combat style training. The funny part was seeing ur awkward self in the mirrors but also images of Elmer 'eulogio' complaining and insisting on his lack of coordination. I don't have much gumption yet to shout 'HA' during the workouts though. But it got better as the class went on. Spinning is still more intense.

i'm half-way through Jeffrey Sachs book Ending Poverty. His case studies on Bolivia, Poland, Russia,Africa etc. contain some interesting bits that one use when considering a 'clinical diagnosis' of the state of the Philippine economy.

Gica is getting her hair colored!

Saturday, May 07, 2005

Bangkok - Day 20

my routine here is to work out and read, and so far it's turned out pretty well. i've been enjoying some yoga sessions and also completed Chabon's Kavalier & Clay book, that I've been wanting to finish for ages. I think I will look back at this summer as one that is idyllic, at least on the surface. Once one approaches a certain age, a sense of idyll is forever lost, that is, if you want to remain human. I think my seventeenth summer was the last real one. i have a pile of books to read and i'll have to take them home. my suitcase is gonna be bulging.

so today we went to world trade center to do a little book shopping, which is a good thing, since I've been making it a project to get mom to buy me Ishiguro's latest offering (success, he he). Also managed to get Kel the Marketing and Music book that he wanted. Wow, Kel is wanting to buy books now. *Change* We went to Asia Books and Kinokuniya.

I had a sweet Lassi yoghurt drink before heading home. do you know how much sugar they put into those things? damn. never realized THAT much no wonder it's so goood.

funny coincidence today. the cab we took home from central world plaza was the EXACT same driver who took me home at 2 in the morning from Silom last week. he knew me, and i thought it was funny. he insisted for 5 minutes though that we don't use the meter to which i kept on saying: if u dont put on the meter, we're getting down. i was damn firm. ha ha. anyway, he relented. this driver was so frigging un-Thai (ok, am i gonna start Thai bashing again? I'm not! Anyway, I've met so many nice Thai people lately). Why was he so un-Thai? Coz he was so chummy and 'familiar'. I realize that I hate people who try to be familiar with me when I'm not in the mood. Ok, I don't like scammers to be chummy. He didn't have to tap me on the side before I got down the cab. Yo. MY PERSONAL SPACE brotha. "See you next week." Is what I said in my most ironic tone. It didn't translate of course.

i have about 10 days left here. Gica is homesick for Manila already. Means that I better finish my shopping soon. I'm already making a neat pile of things that I'm gonna have to bring home. I'm gonna be bringing home some sharp STEAK KNIVES to carve up our meat well.

Mahar, we got ur into the woods DVD ;)

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

mundane info

much better to have a tall non-fat cappuccino (sp?) than to have a tall non-fat no whip cafe mocha. even if ur cap has one pump of flavored syrup.

cap > latte > mocha

chocolate hazelnut biscotti= vanilla almond biscotti
damage: 110 c

Monday, April 25, 2005

Bangkok - Day 8

Tams flew in with Kel last night, and since she had never been to Thailand before, we had to take her to Chatuchak weekend market. After 3 hours of shopping in the heat we were wilting and ready to die.

Near one of the MRT stops by Chatu there's a cool store called Only Sugar where all the products are beige, chocolate and rose pink. the people running the place are dressed in chocolate/pink fisherman pants that Gica and Tam just had to have. it was also nice coz the 'main man' designer was in the thick of things helping out and running the place. these kinds of more personable stores are the places to go to. things usually cost more, but they're also so much better. that was the case as well later in the afternoon at MBK when i bought leather flipflops from the actual boss of the store. she was playing semi-fashion consultant.

the only other thing i took home today was a mood lamp, a bit of a cliche purchase, but am happy with it. decided to spend the night in, w/c is good coz have been going out a bit lately with other foreign friends in BKK. Tams and Kel will be visiting Angkor the next few days.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Bangkok - Day 4

I've been here long enough that when I step out of the bathroom, a distinct Thai smell wafts out. This is due to Chow-wee our Thai housekeeper who prepares all the food that this household eats. She comes in twice or thrice a week to prepare salads, curries and fried rice. In between her visits, we reheat meals in the microwave, never having to touch pot or pan. This frees up more time for us to consider, which DVD to watch or if it's no longer too hot to go swimming in the pool upstairs. There are enough good books to read lying around the apartment, too.

This idyllic existence only has a shelf-life of 48 hours before any restlessness comes up. I will have to decide what to do with the month I have in Bangkok.

Culture shock came early this visit. My only real peeve with Thai people is how difficult it can be to communicate with them on occasion. Ironically, it can be easier to communicate with a Thai person that speak little-to-no English than those who do speak some English. With the former, one can get along nicely with gestures, drawings, and simple words. On the other hand the latter will insist on speaking full, complex sentences, oblivious to how their accents interfere with the words they are enunciating. It's especially irritating if they feel that your incomprehension is supposedly your own fault. While in the middle of Rama IV avenue looking for an apartment building, I found recourse with some Thai people working in a video store who gave me good directions with hand gestures and a smile. The surly tone of a so-called English speaking tour guide were unhelpful.

[sarc] How opressive of me to speak in such a tone. [/sarc]. Well, I'm only oppressing surly Thai tour guides who think they are comprehensible.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

i figure if you put together something like the Onion in Manila people will take the news literally -- not necessarily because people don't understand satire. It's because some parts of life (political) are so bizarre that absurd writing and sentiment can pass for conventional journalism
I spent the morning cramming as usual my take home final exam for the history of economic thought. I ended up writing quite a bit about Marx -- I finally understand why the labour theory of value was so important in his thesis of labour exploitation. The other questions I answered were about Marshall, JM Keynes. They weren't as interesting, but they were very answerable.

The afternoon, I tried, gave up, and tried again to read my book, The Order of Things: The Archaeology of Knowledge by Michel Foucault. I have to write a paper on this, and it's turning out to be quite a difficult read. It's hard enough to slog through economics and dealing with economists, and their terms. Now I have to deal with the writings and language of this French philosopher. It's a generalization, but French philosopher tend to ramble and ramble before getting the point. One needs a little patience and fortitude to continue reading.

In the evening, I watched Angels in America the miniseries on DVD. I didn't know what to make of it (and still dont know), but I enjoyed it anyway. It's a good series, so far.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

boracay

this is just a list of things i did and observations in Bora. so far so good, and if you don't want to get envious, maybe you shouldn't read on. ;) i apologize right now though for the lack of coherence and style. just want to get some things down while the feeling is fresh.

this place can't be beat for atmosphere sometimes. reggae mix of je ne t'aime plus playing outside the cafe.

as by boracay holy week tradition i've run into people, and did a little small talk: when did you arrive, where are you staying, when are you leaving, what are you gonna do later?

vacation began a little off, the thursday parties' only saving grace was alcohol. too many bitches with attitude at hey jude and summer place. sought fun elsewhere.

Friday, much better. The Indian dinner we had at True Food was quite good, if the service a little poor. the evening chill-out event (c2) at club paraw was ok, and thanks to Bianca, we got a pretty nice cabana. earlier in the afternoon simple joys: tossing a frisbee with Nicole and Edsel at the wide beach fronting cocamangas. the morning had a yoga session at Mandala spa.

This morning had a huge breakfast and a great massage, and finally(!) went for a long swim and got a lot of sun. enjoyed my Paul Theroux book on the beach. might go for a little cruise later or rent a bike, we'll see what i feel like doing. maybe a little shopping?

some of the locals here really are nice. none of that fake service smile BS. makes me want to stay here longer, among other things.

the end

Thursday, March 24, 2005

i'll be in boracay the next few days, so i'll probably have at least one story to write next week, when i get back. i dont know what to expect except for the crowds and the parties. i guess i'll have a good time. ;) why spend all this money otherwise.


'went to Tita Narda's wake tonight, and I bumped into Juliet and Baby again, really remnants from my childhood. What threw me back though was seeing Mang Tony again! I haven't seen him in ages. He used to drive me to school as a grade-schooler. He can hardly hear now, and he can't believe that I know how to drive a car now.

I read a few old e-mails (over the past 3-5 years) College years and early post-college. Things seem so different.

Recently, Jojo L has been calling it a quarter-life crisis. I find the label stupid -- only coz what happens to other people, isn't supposed to happen to me (?), in a way. Anyway, I'll go distract myself for a while now. Time to pack.

Sunday, March 20, 2005

genteel day

had only 2.5 hrs of sleep owing to a early morning arrival from Edsel's party. visited William's farm, first time, today along with the other ADS crew. met at starbucks 830 am. Road trip! Camille, Dione, Jess and Petite were fun car mates on the way to San Fernando. Goodness the tolls on the Northern Luzon expressway are a bundle. 300 pesos towards and back.

William's little 'farm' was pretty cool. A pool, lanai and structures worthy of a interior design magazine, and a tasty spread for lunch (esp. enjoyed the Buro --> fermented fish something). We had Proseco and peach liquer by the pool. lovely

Leloy's driving was great to make fun of, as usual.






* switching gears *

Talo si Pacquiao! fuck

Friday, March 18, 2005

quite a few people link to this blog now. Didn't realize that Jess and Camille link up here as well. Great work Jess, passing the LAE of UP Law.

I'm almost done with school. I have two papers to write. I'll probably get it all done in April. Holy week is at our doorstep and I'm not in the mood to work. I'm all done with my Ateneo teaching load. All this work is from the UP School of Econ. . .

I had a great afternoon tonight. Ran with Maita, Larry and Miguel around Ateneo before having a nice meal in Tribu (Xavierville). Mahar says he's eaten here before. I never knew of the place, and they serve cheap ass food. Maits and I had 1 beef kebab, 1 stick of pork barbecue, 2 sticks of chicken liver, grilled vegetables (onions, tomatos, and okra), extra grilled onion and tomato, a bit of pita bread, and three rum cokes. this cost a grand total of 260 pesos. Cheap rum coke ha ha ha ha. So of course people got all tipsy.

Mahar flies to Bangkok tomorow. Bye Mahar.
Ms. Hawaiian Tropic is showing on TV. Hmm.

I bought a swimming book today! :)

It's Edsel Tupaz's bday celebration tomorrow, I've been going to this party for past 5 years. It's nice to have traditions like that.

Sorry for the entry today, all matter of fact and dull. This was my writing style in one of my earlier blogs. But life has been very interesting lately though.

Saturday, March 12, 2005





You Are Bold And Brave









But daring? Not usually?

You tend to like to make calculated risks.

So while you may not be base jumping any time soon...

You are up for whatever's new and (a little) exciting!




alright. im bold and brave.


these memes (?) look a lot cooler in blogspot eh

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

lots of chewy bits

from the recently finished joint Econ/Business/IT conference of the UP School of Econ, and Alfred Uni College of Bussiness.

I particularly enjoyed the presentations that dealt with measuring financial volatility, price assymetry in the gasoline market, rural poverty, the 1986 & 1997 Tax Reforms in the Philippines, Guanxi & competition policy, and the effect of migration on income inequality.

I found dull the presentations on the FATF (Financial Action Task Force), the effect of university research on industrial innovation, and Enterprise resource planning.

I.E. the econ stuff was pretty good, the business stuff was boring. What was pretty impressive though was that some of the stuff that was quite substantial was the work of undergrad students (gasoline market, migration topics).

Insight: there are no big debates in econ conferences, for the most part. People listen politely, bring up a few methodological questions, question a few premises, and then proceed to some tasty lunch (today was scrumptious. AGAIN). Though I guess the non-debate element shouldn't be too surprising because this conference was more a friendly gathering beyond anything, and the focus of a lot of these papers was explanatory rather than policy prescription.

The only debate-y topic if ever would have been Dr. Diokno's talk on tax reform, but as of late, that's been so debated on and in the media, that people probably are fatigued to argue the same things again (That + the minimal presence of red elements in the audience). He was preaching to the choir, anyway. It was a UP School of Econ/ Alfred University / Ateneo Uni / National Economic Development Authority (NEDA) crowd.

I love the way he doesn't mince words (yet remains civil) on his PPT presentation of some of the proposals that have come about in the fiscal debate. E.g. something along the lines of, 'fortunately, such a proposal was never implemented because it was stupid and useless."

Now as pinoy hosts were supposed to take out a few of these american college students / kids / mba students tomorrow. I'm not directly in charge of this, but some friends have asked for some help. I think one should just dump them in the middle of Megamall and have them fend for themselves and enjoy.

Monday, March 07, 2005

conference today

spent most of the morning and early afternoon at the New World Renaissance for an international conference on Business, Economics and IT. It was international in the sense that we had some professors and grad/undergrad students from Alfred University (NY, USA). At some points I felt that the students were asking questions during the open forum segment to get recitation credit from their professor. Alfred U, as co-organizers of this conference, so I hear, financed a lot of this conference. UP School of Econ, the other co-organizer, provided the intellectual capital.

As with a lot of conferences, this meant subsidized food. So I ate up the Tiramisu, salmon and egg sandwiches during breaks. Stir-fried oyster chicken and nut pies during lunch. Everyone enjoyed themselves.

I'll next write a few bits on what papers were discussed, and the ideas that were thrown around. Some were pretty hilarious -- in both the funny and absurd senses of the word.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

Ning's Party

i woke up this morning, after 2 1/2 hours sleep, to a splitting headache. it felt like a migraine, and due to the fact that i had never felt a headache like that before under similar circumstances (that of having drunk a lot of alcohol the night before), i began imagining that it wasn't alcohol-induced, but rather a result of a brain tumor finally asserting itself into my consciousness.

i managed to cure it by eating a banana, taking paracetamol and taking a hot shower. the pill did the trick.

last night was Ning's birthday party at La Vista, and that turned out pretty well. the food was good (esp. those sirlion steaks, mmm). 'began the night with a bottle of smirnoff mule, followed by 4 glasses of red wine, a mixed-vodka drink, scotch on the rocks, and finally courtesy of the master mixing powers of Migs and Cholo, a creamy concoction of something, and some variation of Sangria. The drive home i was pretty sober, and had downed about 4 glasses of water to rehydrate. So the headache that was beyond just a hangover was a total surprise. my body doesn't act this way (but then again, I don't normally drink those many kinds of alcoholic drinks in one night).

Anina was in good spirits and happy. Maita was fun. Trinka and I had good talks. Minelle was soo wasted (ha ha ha).

Saturday, February 26, 2005

no dinner, so i raided the fridge and made it myself

sandwich of toasted wheat bread, spinach-artichoke cream cheese, "excellente" Quiapo ham, and tomato slices.

two scoops of sweet corn ice cream with walnuts and banana slices

glass of california red

i should "make" my own dinners more often. its hours later and im still so satisfied with it. he he.

Friday, February 25, 2005

just a little hiccup this morning 'coz my data analysis software (SPSS) expired. something wrong with the license code i got in Ateneo. remedied it by switching gears and using STATA instead. that worked out, and the program actually seems superior, for my needs.

so this afternoon, i've been 'mucking around' with the data. this is where the art side of economics is supposed to happen. you got a whole pile of variables (im dealing with around fifteen), and from doing all these runs you're supposed to find a well-specified model lurking around somewhere. well, it's also partially voodoo magic if you're preparing a paper that isn't so much for publication as it is for a requirement. i'd like to think that i'm still more of the former mindset. . .im not getting drained by this. not yet.

I finished the Provence book, and in record time too, 'coz i knew that not finishing it would just distract me from this paper. i miss living in a french environment (french, NOT swiss).

Monday, February 21, 2005

i've been running into my students lately. just this evening i bumped into one of them in Shakey's, and another two at Starbucks. they call me 'sir', which is something i easily got used to. i think it's just another way of saying 'kuya' though, in my opinion. coz im not that much older than them (max 6 years)

i've been making some decent progress with my thesis. im ready to write starting tomorrow. the theoretical framework is practically there -- which has been the major stumbling block for the longest time. now, comes the easier (yet tedious) business of analyzing the data. i move from theory to empirics. now that we've gotten a justifiable framework on the ground, we have to give the data the right treatment. all of this work has to become a decent draft due for submission exactly 1 week from now. i'm glad that i have a wonderful chunk of 3 days of no school just before submission. a LOT of work can be done then. hopefully more polishing than cramming. i will start the runs of the data tomorrow. if you are one my few friends who the ins and outs of logistic regressions, expect phone calls during this week.

quite a bit, as usual, has happened since last entry. i've been buying a whole bunch of books lately -- this is just the influence of hanging around more literay people. they buy books like fast-food meals. book moratoria occasionally become necessary, as well. the sports/active life has taken a backseat for a while, which is a little ironic because the AXN show begins this week, and runs for the next 3. there was a little mall tour last saturday, and despite the fact that it could have become very cheesy and jologgy really fast, that didn't happen. Tricia Chiongbian helped Revilson with the hosting duties and she actually had to say my name. wow. i always thought she was cool. we met Kerry's wife and kids. cute. they'll jump out of a plane to skydive someday.

sunday morning, building brownie pts with mr dad, i went on a litle quiapo tour with Dr. Zialcita. it was ok, learned a few things, but it really isn't for the normal tourist. going around quiapo is interesting, but it also is a study in urban decay and mismanagement. empty, deteriorating houses, and other urban problems. still, bright spots: like the Nakpil house just behind the Quiapo church, and news that the U-Belt community plans to revitalize the areas around their campuses. that is an excellent first start. we have to move beyond the sensibilities and tastes of people like Mayor Lim though. im glad that ppl like him get stuff done, but things could still be so much better. whoever heard of not wanting to support socialized housing because of a problem of too much migration. ridiculous. what a backward way of thinking. what am i talking about here? send me a buzz.

food tripping around quiapo is fun. miki bihon at the panciteria is TASTY. the handmade hopia is actually better than the stuff in Binondo ('coz its factory-style there). pops bought some excelente ham and some wholesale nestle's crunch. had a lovely lap sunday afternoon after all that walking. i now have a further notion of streets in Manila, as well as geographical appreciation of how small Quiapo is. Calle Hidalgo connects San Sebastian to the Catedral de Nazareno. The Golden Mosque is also in the area. The place is just brimming with promise (like Intramuros). You just have to fix it up a bit, as well as adopt a more sensible approach of dealing with the poor residents living in these places. You can't see them as social parasites needing eviction. I like the word Dr. Zialcita used: monolithic. You can't see Intramuros as a monolithic structure, something for tourism. It has to be planned in such a way to deal with the social realities that exist. This makes a lot of sense.

i bought a fluffy book today: Mayle's A Year in Provence.

Sunday, February 13, 2005

two movies

i wonder if i realize that i spent about a thousand bucks (to my international blog audience, approx only 20 US$, but that is a bit in these parts) in greenbelt last night. it only hit me now, the lunch after. 200 bucks in parking, around 300 hundred on movies, 300 on dinner and another 250 on alcohol-infused coffee.

no regrets though, 'coz i thought it was money well spent. i use hindsight, again, to realize that the night was actually an operation in comfort and nostalgia. dinner at banana leaf and curry, killing time and gossiping in Segafredo -- for those who don't know me in certain sense, this place is classic. Watched A Very Long Engagement in the early afternoon, and caught the midnight showing of Phantom of the Opera. Both movies were good, you should watch them. I just don't have the energy now to properly review and properly explain why I found them both good, in their own ways.

I'll clip here though a review I found decent on IMDB.com, a place I go to AFTER I watch an interesting movie. Someone asked me to review A Very Long Engagement after I'd seen it, well we'll see if I ever get around to that. In the meantime, here's the review below, which I don't think the author will really mind if I post it here.



Author: endymion82 from San Francisco, CA

*** This comment may contain spoilers ***

So, I usually don't qualify my reviews, but this movie is sort of special, and the comments I've read are from all over the map so I feel I should give some idea of where I'm coming from too.

I've been an playwrite, actor, and director for years, with work of mine have been doing both domestically and internationally, and having appeared in plays both amateur and professional and every level in between, including a professional opera and many a musical: whenever I watch anything, I approach it on three levels: artist, critic and audience. Also, I grew up seeing shows on Broadway, both mega-musicals and little indy plays in the Village, and while generally speaking my tastes lean more towards "arty and indy", I do have a broader pallet and it would be more accurate to say that my real interest is piqued by anything that is genuinely good at being what it is- which is one way of describing "Phantom of the Opera." Because yes, it's not as complec and intelligent as the work of Sondheim, or Kander and Ebb, but for what it sets out to be, an enthralling and absorbing Gothic romance (a genre that is rarely done well on stage, let alone as a musical), it achieves on every level: the score (which is soaring and crashing and large, just like the emotions of the characters who sing it), the design (ornate and overwhelming and grand guigol to the hilt), the story (which is totally ridiculous on some level, but since gothicism and romance are both genres which celebrate the extremes of our minds and imaginations, this is totally appropriate). "Phantom" is a brilliant example of art where the content and the style of the rendering of that content fit each other to a tea, and while it may not be YOUR cup of tea I sort of feel that anyone who thinks it's crap has basically missed the point or is just sour grapes because the thing is so damn popular and so damn good at being what it is (and lets face it, it's hard not to resent a success sometimes). Genius is often ridiculed, especially genius of an unusual nature or in a somewhat unconventional field (and Gothic romance, be it novel, film or musical, is looked down on in general, usually for the very qualities that make it interesting) and Webber's work is genius, because "Phantom" is, for all its faults, tightly written, a brilliant balance of camp, melodrama, satire and fairy tale, and while the style of music might not work for each listener, it effectively illuminates the story and conveys what is most important about the characters: their titantic (albeit, somewhat simple-minded) emotions, desires, fears and obsessions.

*SPOILERS*

The movie, in my opinion, takes what is best about the play and does it even better. Though some of my favorite bits from the stage show (the rehearsal of Don Jaun where the piano plays itself, Raoul's part in "Wondering Child") are gone, they have been dropped in favor of brilliant improvements, namely having the chandelier crash at the conclusion of the film (it really brings the whole thing full circle), and allowing more glimpses of Paris 1917, finally explaining why it is Raoul returns, what happens to the Phantom, etc. Other good bits that we see now but never saw onstage: an affectionate moment between Meg and Madame Giry, some history of the Phantom, a deeper sense of what Meg may know or not know about the Phantom's presence, the stalking of Josephe Bouquet, the life of the underclass of the opera house, the Hall of Mirrors from the book, etc. Also, the music has been beautifully re-orchestrated, and never sounded better. I'll take orchestra over canned synths, any day, thank you.

The cinematography is beautiful and the "opera" moments are well done- complete with the cornball, almost intrusive dancing and vibrant but totally unrealistic sets and costumes that characterized "grand opera" at the time. The sense of constant claustrophobia back stage is great, and adds to that sense of what it was like to live and work in this tiny world where everyone is a performer and half your wardrobe comes from the costume department (did anyone else catch that moment where Christine takes her dress from the wardrobe?), adding to the central question at "Phantom's" core- what (who) is real, and what (who) is an illusion- and is real preferable to illusion, or vice-vera? The bleedingly bright colors and deep shadows of the movie help echo all of this- reminding us always, this story is not real, hero on white charger and all, but we don't want it to be: it's a legend, it's a fairy tale, it's a farce... it's a masquerade. It's, as the Auctioneer says, "a strange affair." "Phantom" told and acted realistically, totally wouldn't work, so don't ask it to, or judge it that way.

The best thing about this movie is the performances, and the director has done a wonderful thing by moving AWAY from Michael Crawford and Sarah Brightman, both of whom gave role defining performances, neither of which are any more "correct" than any other. The question isn't, are Butler and Rossum as good as their predecessors, but rather do their versions of the characters work, and the answer is: yes. Return to "Phantom" as a text, not as a show with a history, and you'll see that Christine is supposed to be dreamy, lost, emotionally unstable and young, just as Rossum plays and sings the role. Butler, with his harsher singing and deeper range, is much more believable as a madman who is sometimes pathetic and pitable, but still ultimately a deranged egomaniac who lives underground and makes wax statues of the woman he loves. The rest of the cast is equally good, with Minnie Driver giving a heroically hysterical performance, Jennifer Ellison combining strength and curiosity with innocence and a certain grounded quality (I've always believed the audience is ultimately supposed to identify with Meg, who is the only character who never panics and maintains a healthy sense of "reality) that contrasts nicely with Rossum's morbid dreaminess, and Patrick Wilson doing much more with Raoul than any of the actors I've seen on stage. I wish Simon Callow had had more to do, but such is life- at least he was there. Miranda Richardson continues to prove she can play anything, and conveying more with a look than most actresses can with a full script of dialogue. Her accent is totally brilliant: it sets her apart, makes her glamorous and mysterious, and at the same time, is another sly tongue in cheek reminder that what we are watching should only be believed to a point: it is, after all, just another version of beauty and the beast.