some ideas certain students aren't ready to process just yet. in this case, i'm not talkin about readiness that comes from life experience. i'm talking about readiness that comes from a person who would do a little reading outside the realm of what one encounters everyday. so, for some of these people, knowing certain things won't be a matter of time, but whether they want to be individuals who actually care about ideas and their roles in being vessels of change. i'm not worrying too much about it though. . .

earlier DSL was screwing up. damn. i drank 85 bucks worth of soy milk in starbucks earlier. where do i get all this money

I decided to ditch Nams today, foregoing a day trip to her farm and restaurant in Pampanga, in exchange with spending some time with Pops. Gica and Mahar are off in the first debate invitational of the school year, and Kel had some music business with Marc. So that left only me at home, and I thought that I had been spending more than one recent weekend away from home. I needed the brownie points, too. I'll be away and gone next weekend to Mt. Cristobal.

It takes a bit of time to get Pops to talk animatedly. He waxed on and on about jesuits and religion while we were eating at Heaven and Eggs in Tomas Morato. He knows his priests. I forget that he was actually sitting next to Horatio de la Costa many years ago on a trip home from Rome. My pops doesn't always talk much, so it was refreshing change to see him pretty much start getting all excited. He didn't lose any steam when I had to check a few SMSes that came in during the conversation. Memories like these are important. We talked a bit about the house today, and also the arrangements for P. Florentino. I see a potential conflict here, 'coz parents seem to be of two different minds as to what to do with our old house. Income generation is an important element in any future plans as far as Pops is concerned.

fuss over Sigur Russ

I've been fixing up the tracks in my IPOD, using snatches of lyrics and discography lists to fill in the missing elements. Can someone tell me what's the big deal with Sigur Ros and why some of my friends rave over this Icelandic group? It's majorly boring. Luvstory is now playing on Itunes. It's 7 minutes of grr hss grr. I'm falling asleep. Maybe it's suppose to approximate an ice floe. Njosnavelin from the Vanilla Sky soundtrack seems a little better. Flugufrelsarinn. What is this. . .

I thought Serj Tankian was some guy on Broadway. Ha ha ha.

Another page of the book of one's life.

Went to Maita's despedida dinner last night. It was the usual cast of Maita characters that I mostly getting along with -- well, I've accepted that sometimes you can't get along with everybody, and to force the issue isn't worth it. Also realized, that some people morph into better people when their evil-influence friends aren't around. Isn't this the case for all of us? Even at our age (gasp!) we still get swayed by the EI people.

Ate so many of those cocktail hotdogs with marshmallows. Food hi-light though was the chocolate fondue that I slathered over bananas, grapes, marshmallows and taisan cake.

I'm glad Maita appreciated the Canada book I gave her. I do hope she uses it! She'll be leaving soon, and I'm guessing (hoping!) that the one year she's gone will go by real fast. Told myself that I wasn't gonna drink much, and I succeeded, taking in only a glass or two of red wine. Still got home at around 4 am though hailing a cab somewhere in the middle of Ortigas.

Am loading up my Ipod with classical music I like. Mobile music for your moods. You can start mapping out your emotional makeup depending on the kind of music needs you have, I think. I have my classical moments, still.

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watching South Park now on Jack TV. had forgotten how funny this shit is.

August sucks. People start leaving for school that starts in September. I have a bunch of friends who are leaving. It doesn't change each year. Ever notice that it's the cool and fun people who leave? I want to be the one to leave -- not coz I hate this place, but then I don't get left behind. Well, I did that 2002. My turn. What a bitch.

Actually the ideal would be all of us in one big ass cosmopolitan alive city. It can be Manila, but we'd have to be all here. . .

i'm flying off to davao this weekend to give a debate seminar. i wonder what hotel the organizers are gonna book me in. i last went to davao around 4 years ago, and it left me with a very positive impression. the people were cool there, and it was more relaxed than manila, and there seemed to be a whole bunch of spots to hang-out in.

davao davao davao. la la la la. im gonna see what the LP and other guides say about the place.

its 530 pm. i want to go home. too tamad to work out today. im supposed to run 10k tomorrow. screw making a best time. will just get the dang thing over with. too busy to train properly. sheesh

my body probably thinks im schizo. saturday i had a bumming morning, ran 6-7k in the evening, then scooted over to bobby's to drink up and smoke up. slept in this morning before lunch and then shopping at galleria. i bought sports equipment. lovely.

i've been leaching off lorraine's backpack for more than a year, and now i got my own. a 75 liter conqueror brand for just over 2k. im pretty happy that the people at the store told me that it was around 3.5k before, and that i had gotten a good price on it. it's larger than the 65L i used to borrow from Lorraine which is what i want anyway, and im used to this brand. i just have a small worry about the straps and how it will feel after a long trek, but im comfortable with it, and it seemed quite stable and good when i had loaded it up w/ a 4 man tent, sleeping bag, cookset and stove. i was marching all around the store w/ the gear strapped on my back. i guess i can take it out for some ramps this coming wednesday.

it's gonna be a busy week. i have a paper to write, a long test to give, and a climb to prepare for. i dont think i have time for crap this week. that reminds me, i got to get JV's trekking pole fixed -- mental note.

i love buying good and good value gear. :) i finally bought a few dri-fit shirts today, so that i have something different to wear for the climbs and the runs. i have the same 2 (though good!) pieces. i rewarded myself w/ 3 new ones. i think i don't deserve them though, i haven't been very 'good' when it comes to fitness and discipline.

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bob's leaving his house, and last night it looked like a club. it was empty and there were lights. lots of mike's cute friends were there. ha ha. so it was sorta like a club. there was nice booze and smokes. normally i don't touch much, but i was in an odd mood so i say life is short. now, i feel though as if my body has to repair the damage. sometimes i wonder when it'll all catch up. i won't stress over it too much though -- what's done is done.

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i'm meeting with pat this tuesday, to consider buying her mask, fins and diving bag. gee, im gonna run out of money soon. i spent a lot of money on food, too. oh well, guess im gonna be a bit of skinflint the next few days.

busy day

I'm going to Mt. Mariveles the weekend after next, and I've decided that the trip there can only be a reward from more than a week of productive hard work! So kept myself busy today, working on things that I normally would postpone til later. I figured that, really, my productivity is related to how much time I spend in front of the computer. How gross is that, I realize. I wish that I could be productive if I had a stack of books and an Ipod in Starbucks. No, to complete the whole picture, I'd have to be lugging along a laptop.

I sat in Sir Weyms (from my mathematical past!) Math class this afternoon. Andre was coming over to visit, so I decided to sit in as well. I actually liked sitting in his class. Felt I learnt something again (even if we were just talking about functions). Now I find myself being more able to interpret the teacher's sighs, side comments, etc. Essentially students are lazy, and as a teacher, you have to snap them out of it -- even if you are a real lazy one yourself. He he. They have to really see the value in what you're teaching, that's one thing. Not always easy to communicate that.